the rain..would it fall? it drizzled just now..the dark skies are still here..
will you chase away these shadows? n dry the raindrops that have fallen on me
hai..
another day. just drags itself..was strugglin in e morn to run faster..den my stupid stomach muscle pain..arggh..no good lah e position..raas. den went cyclin n stuff..hahas..went mad..den came prac for ndp..yay! i rushd there..den prac e sec ones..v gd lah dey.. got improve alot..*hugs them* but..aiya..dono lah..still kinda sian..n im so..doin dis..hai
ohs.char is smart..she noes n can read my mind..scary lah but i love her. ginny was surprised when i told her..haas.=grins silly=
still remb mi, ginny, lene n jane..sat on e edge of the wall wif e sea at our feet..below us..so scary..like gonna fall in..n gini wanted to fall in..den i juz sat dere..n subsequently lay there on my back lookin at e sea n e sky..

how wonderful if i cud just lie on my back n stare up at e sky
to just leave everything behind and soar free into the sky..

so shiok i tell u..hai~

"come what may.come what may.ill love you.until my dying days"

sighs.dat song is so nice..-shrugs.
jesus ill love you.ill love u foreva..forever til it meets no end.

den rushd to worship prac..my last prac..how enjoyabble..ya.yay n i had my kinder bueno..thankew tutor.
sigh.ya.i noe.dono how to plan my time.how to get my stuff right.so busy.rush here rush there.
*is that what i want*
why does everyone tink lidat.dad.mom.who else? -raise eyebrow- huh..understand? it sokay..i noe..gonna burn out? how bout duh lah? hahs.care? come hm oni so busy..ya i noe..i noe..-raindrops have fallen-

i will sing to u Lord. everyday of my life.i will glorify ur name. lift me up.in ur arms. hold mi close n nv let go.

::.fallen.angel.::

11:23 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

haiya.
so disappointed with myself. did so badly for bio..my worst bio test sia..b4!!!! shux! its gonna pull down my average lah.n bio is one of my best subjects.
sigh.
everyting is like so sucky now..nt tues got maths test. trigo n sets..liew im so gonna die lah..been failing every maths test i had..n dis sat got eng test..irritating zebra oni today den tell us lah..she din even noe lor..*grumps
typed es testi di..my tutor..ey.teach mi maths! *screams*
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
-cries- help mi LAH! im so tired..i need sleep..n i wan to be free..
*just lie in the field
hai..like i can lidat..wa liew.oh.im havin conference call wif lene n jane.raas.
den i changed my taggy the blog..i typed stuff.
aiya..alot of tings to do lor..hai..maths alot of exercises..chi failed my test again lah! 42/100..hai..


i stand here in this place
to see the glory on ur face
taken by the wonder of ur name
im desperate for ur touch
never needed it so much
coz all i want is you


charlene lie is irritatin..she keeps sayin helloo..n is screaming into my ear..n she juz threaten gini-hack off her hair..haaiisss..interruptor of e train of thots..
leave now n never come back! 'quote fm smeagol in lotr'
hahas..dey lafin like siao now..im a beggar for e rest of my life..
n its all charlene's fault..
aiya chinese gotta write all e ci 10 times..crazy lah..so tired..got work..chi ying yong wen! somebody save me ah!!! *screams*

charlene lie stop ur helloing!

choose life that you might live
the life that he gives
he gives you forever
choose life
the way that is true
from the One who chose you
your Father in heaven
choose life.

yay! lene gini n jane r goona go east coast in my dad's car. the car betta not break down i tell you..for 2.4 tmr..hafta run..hai..n gonna wear our class t..which is super nice..kenneth designd it..it is so funky...but e print is so small lah..
i was so tired today..rather e whole week..sigh..im so sori jo for not meeting u at e bus stop..*grins* coz i culdn wake up..hai..so blehs now..
..if he carried the weight of the world upon his shoulders
i noe that he will caryr you..
yes..i will let him carry mi..i trust in you o Lord..guide me o Lord..i rest in you..

aiya..so tired..heh..must haf said dat like afew thoousand times..
.sighs.
i feel so noti n lazy n bleh lah..got so much work n like im not doin aniting..*punch myself..
=shrugs

9:26 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

this is how the story ends.
rahaas,
listenin to sk8erboi..whoos.
hai..told adrian di..he say ok..i shall go for my last worship prac dis fri..last one. ahhs.*frowns
eaTING my mum's soup.it rocks k! n cherries rock too.esmond just bcame my tutor..my "smart" tutor..rahaas.coz he thot mi maths.
whoos.mum say dun eat at e library..i mean at e studyroom..
liew my sis bluff mi say she eat oni one egg n i wanted to let her eat mine den she ate 3 lah! irriating.but i ve bcum nicer..ok dats gd..rahaas.
n went lene's chrch yest..yay! i met god..he told mi not to get too caught up in ministry..but rather focus on him..im sori god. real sori.i will never do dat again.
i will seek ur face.ur glory.


i want to noe you.
i want to see ur face.
i want to noe u more.
i want to touch u.
i want to hear ur voice.
i want to noe u more.

ytay!! open up the gates.im goin mad! *jumps arn* wahaas. run round playin electric. :)
like moses i shall plead to see ur face..n i shall see ur back o Lord
ok i go watch x men..
*skips

7:05 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ohh.
=pauses=
i must savour this endearing moment.
*screams*
ahh i finally type my own blog at home!!! whoo hoo. jumps for joy!
rahaas.
hai~` aniway..im so dead lah. lah LAH.
today chinese test so gonna fail.im sori god i din try ny best. i din trust you enuf. :(
-stones-
dono wad to do now la..im like sucking at everything.
*pulls my hair*
mr choo.dun like him la.a maths so sucky laah. last nite slept wif the lite on again. sigh.n din study properly. so tired. guides ended like so late n went hm like 7+.n im sori ok. huiyuan kelly n susanna. i din mean to get pissed yest. cos i was rather tired n worried.
bahs. just so..(uhhhhhhhhh) now. pressure everywhere?! guides e ndp..liew.not nice. hafta change. creative? ok..but my juice all dried up! ahhhh! n super stress last nite..mum pressed mi again.. choose one hor. bu yao dang er bian feng.
hello?
im like..how to choose? hai~ gonna tok to adrian. i believe e cough i had e other time was god telling mi to stop for awhile.til i finish my o's.n handprints i shall still cont. *frowns*
just hate it la.just hafta force all this thots outta my head n just do wad i hafta do.

when the oceans rise and thunders roar.
i will soar with oyu above the storm
[ father ] you are king over the flood
and i will be s t i l l
and know you are [ god ]


yays! goin lene's church later.hmms. wad shuld i wear...thot di lah. ohh.and gini told mi this song.

you were everything everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed
but we lost it
and all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

whoos.it was by avril lavigne. yay she rocks!hahs. so funky.

aniway so i wun b goin church. goin to megalife.yays.n lene almost..ok she did. shit in her panties.hahs. oh no she s gonna kill me.diarrhoea la. n we took neoprint.mi jane n charlene. rahaas.n we spotted alot of shayns. whjoo.

1:29 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

sigh.
so tired. n irritated with myself.
liew yest..nv sing properly la..my throat totali no voice..-frowns- n its like so irritatin..so dry n all irriatating.
sori lah! super irritated. x(
i look beyond the empty cross, forgetting wad my life has cost..
ahh worlds apart.
 
dad jux prayed n blessed mi in the car dis morn. gonna haf lunch latr.. den at nite got amaths  tuition. haiya. im destined in my entire life to suck at amaths. now gettin even more difficult. *verge of tears*
hrmmpff.
sumhow i noe god is here. be still..n i haven been reading his word for like 2 days? n it seems like eternity.. sigh. sori god..been realbusy n tired..x
 
all i want is all i want is you [jesus]
 
psalm 42 : why so downcast, O my soul? why so disturbed?
                      but i will put my hope in the LORD..my god in whom i take refuge
 
all i want is all i want si you [jesus]
 
to stay in ur embrace..hugs god.
 
 
 
 
 
 
how wonderful if the world could just stop for one hr or more. to let mi just catch my breath. to be still for a lil while..then move on again.
how wonderful if i could just lie. in the field and stare up at the sky..to think about him..and enter his presence.
 
oh i..i wanna just leave awhile. i wanna just leave awhile.to fly high in the sky.to be where you are..
why..why am i in my cell..why am i cold in the mind.would you break free..
and run again.into his embrace.
 
i just wanto be where you are.wanna be close to you..to have your peace again.just close my eyes.
i never wanna leave your side.even when im not close by..bring me to you.and kiss away my tears.
 
 
 
woah.worte another song.the lyrics lah..sigh.thanlyou god.i shall think of the chords.
how i love you jesus.
 

8:11 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ohhs. haish.
im tired..
whee!! im 15 today!! thankew u all for ur presents..n love you guys alot! my dearest charlene n gini! xueli too..n mani others who haf always been there for mi.
u noe im supp to study now la? but im not. n i lost my voice..singin for tmr sumore..*whines*
i shall pray! nothing is impossible with god. whoos!
aiya. i decided to wake up at 5 am to do my qt but kp overslpin la! so irritatin! n slpin earlier sumore..huh!:x
arhll..n im so broke..though im fasting..cos buy present ma..hdgskhsbdns,
 
hehs.
bio test tmr..how to study la. no time liao. blars.ixora rocks! they gimme e neckclace veri nice!! -gushes- hees. i want my voice.
-pleads wif god-
im tired. hope go hm wun slp! haiya. bet gor forgot its my bday la..so sad lor..wells. expected la.. :x nevr minds.
yays. tmr s kindy family day..so nice. n the kids r super cute la. sigh but got bio..hope ill do well..haven study finish yet. pui~
rara.. sigh
-nothing to say-
16 july 2004.. the tiringest bday ever. skool.guides.worship prac. whoo..but i still thank god!
hello!
n ms zarinah is a screaming zebra. hees. im sori la.
liew we super crap today la.playing e bang bang game n telling lame stories.
 
 
i ll tell u bout the dirty n lame joke.
one day there was dis man on his camel in e desert. then e camel fell n broke his leg. den e man fell off e camel n became dirty.
 
 
okies. lame. not funi la!
got sumore la..funnier.lazy to type.

10:02 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

harlo!
im back~
hahs.
haiya. so sori i haven updated in ages.. huh!
i veri busy k..
alot of tings happen..n im stronger den ever!!!!!!!
*screams*
hahs.
3 cheers for guides! sigh..its so diff being a mam..being a sec 3..jux trying so hard to make evey one enjoy guides activity n make evrybody happy..its so diff to please every one..
wells.
=sighs=
wad can i do? only to take it in my stride n be hapi..kelly ask me y i always so hapi..its not easy la! n i be hapi coz it will oni b worse if im not rite?
[ the joy of the LORD is my strength ]
yes! n i will hope in him n trust in his unfailing love! whoos.
-hugs god
yea harx..i came back at 9 plus last nite.. coh meeting til so late..whoo..n i burped.ra haaas.n went skool at 6 in e morn.i was so tired la.-o- yuck! ncc won cheer competiton today. i cant believe it.
bahs. sing same cheer every yr n still can win. sighs. sports day..hmph! we cheer so much today oso din win n ncc won.okies i shall stop whining! x)
roos.
yay sihui cumin later..meeting her at e bus stop at 415..its..355 now. *ahhs* i wan to peeeee!!!!
jux drank mocha.


haiya. jux remb..fdaklgjnc.
mum want mi choose one out of my chrch stuff.. handprints, worship, missions and kfc.
how to choose la. say i veri busy..den wan mi to cut down. how?
=troubled=
no i cant be troubled. been super troubled dis wk la. n im so irritated wif myself agn.
hais~

[ i have lifted my life into ur hands ]
all my days are yours god.

whoos.spread my wings n fly.
yay! n im fasting! hahs.oh.toook my height n weight.
eyyyyyyy! im so heavy! n im eating so so so so so so much lesser la! arhll-grumps-
least i grew taller! hees.
ah i wan to pee..
-go n pee-

3:50 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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